Monday, April 13, 2009 , 10:52 PM
Last family night-out...
Went to wywy last Sunday. It's the last Sunday with my family before I'm going back UK...
Me brother and moi..~ (vaining runs in the family. xD)
Went to wywy last Sunday. It's the last Sunday with my family before I'm going back UK...
Me brother and moi..~ (vaining runs in the family. xD)
Gonna miss Brunei food & my family.. really... x(
(updated): 13th/4 was my dad's birthday. We would be celebrating if he's still around.. I remembered being very excited going back to Brunei since I could celebrate both daddy's and zikri's birthday. Dear daddy would have been 51 today. But as sis said, he's in a better place now and it is true.
So in memories of him, I would share some things about my dad.
He's the best dad that ever lived. The best man ever lived in my life. Some people envied me for having a father like him, and all I can do is being very thankful to Allah for providing my family and I the best dad who had raised me since I was born.
Daddy's priorities were us, his family. He never failed to put us first and always think of our needs and wants. I remembered in the last few months I spent my time with daddy, he bought me so many stuff. I guess there were the last few gifts he could give me before he went.
I told daddy two years ago I would really want the scholarship to UK. And he said I could do it of course, but reminded me that I have to pray to Allah and doa.. So that's what I did. But he, at the same time, prayed a lot for me too, and as a result, i got it.
Then, the process of being sent to UK began. We went back and forth to Lumut and Bandar for interviews, talks, paperworks and all. Daddy had to skip work but he never complained. He helped me with my personal statement, gave me hope when I almost lose it, and be there with me through all the hardships. Despite all that, I was also busy with planning prom and all. He understood and he helped me with it, even paid for the place initially..
So, it's time for me to go.. My parents went to UK with me to help me settle down. They went ahead of me to York (where I lived now) while I was enjoying in London. They went early to see the place I'm gona spend my two years in. They bought me everything to make sure I settle down. Then I arrived York when school started, and found out that, everything was already provided for me. I have the best parents ever.
Then, it's time for them to go. It was also the last day I see my daddy face-to-face.. Goodbyes were brief, like, very. I hugged them goodbye just for few minutes and that's it. I watched them go, never knowing that it was the last time I'd be seeing my dad..
I kept having this thinking lately.. Do I want this? Do I want to be abroad studying? I really want to be near my family now then I asked myself. But then, after thinking back of everything daddy had done for me, he wanted me to succeed. I remembered him saying, he's happy in where I live now. He believed in me and said that he didn't have to worry about me as I am responsible. But inside, I knew he wanted me near him, near my family. He even said that before I went. But he just kept quiet, because he knew it was my dream.
Daddy was kind, generous, alim, supportive, loving, caring, funny, and just a very good man.. I regret of what could have happen. Things like, daddy teaches me to drive, daddy sharing the happiness when I graduate, daddy's support when I first work, or daddy's there when I get married and so much more. But I know I have to accept what happened. The memories with him are engraved in my heart and I would always cherish them. I continuosly will pray for you daddy, and hoped that we will meet sometime in another world. Amin..
I miss you dear daddy.. I'll try to take care of mummy and siblings without you. I love you daddy.
(updated): 13th/4 was my dad's birthday. We would be celebrating if he's still around.. I remembered being very excited going back to Brunei since I could celebrate both daddy's and zikri's birthday. Dear daddy would have been 51 today. But as sis said, he's in a better place now and it is true.
So in memories of him, I would share some things about my dad.
He's the best dad that ever lived. The best man ever lived in my life. Some people envied me for having a father like him, and all I can do is being very thankful to Allah for providing my family and I the best dad who had raised me since I was born.
Daddy's priorities were us, his family. He never failed to put us first and always think of our needs and wants. I remembered in the last few months I spent my time with daddy, he bought me so many stuff. I guess there were the last few gifts he could give me before he went.
I told daddy two years ago I would really want the scholarship to UK. And he said I could do it of course, but reminded me that I have to pray to Allah and doa.. So that's what I did. But he, at the same time, prayed a lot for me too, and as a result, i got it.
Then, the process of being sent to UK began. We went back and forth to Lumut and Bandar for interviews, talks, paperworks and all. Daddy had to skip work but he never complained. He helped me with my personal statement, gave me hope when I almost lose it, and be there with me through all the hardships. Despite all that, I was also busy with planning prom and all. He understood and he helped me with it, even paid for the place initially..
So, it's time for me to go.. My parents went to UK with me to help me settle down. They went ahead of me to York (where I lived now) while I was enjoying in London. They went early to see the place I'm gona spend my two years in. They bought me everything to make sure I settle down. Then I arrived York when school started, and found out that, everything was already provided for me. I have the best parents ever.
Then, it's time for them to go. It was also the last day I see my daddy face-to-face.. Goodbyes were brief, like, very. I hugged them goodbye just for few minutes and that's it. I watched them go, never knowing that it was the last time I'd be seeing my dad..
I kept having this thinking lately.. Do I want this? Do I want to be abroad studying? I really want to be near my family now then I asked myself. But then, after thinking back of everything daddy had done for me, he wanted me to succeed. I remembered him saying, he's happy in where I live now. He believed in me and said that he didn't have to worry about me as I am responsible. But inside, I knew he wanted me near him, near my family. He even said that before I went. But he just kept quiet, because he knew it was my dream.
Daddy was kind, generous, alim, supportive, loving, caring, funny, and just a very good man.. I regret of what could have happen. Things like, daddy teaches me to drive, daddy sharing the happiness when I graduate, daddy's support when I first work, or daddy's there when I get married and so much more. But I know I have to accept what happened. The memories with him are engraved in my heart and I would always cherish them. I continuosly will pray for you daddy, and hoped that we will meet sometime in another world. Amin..
I miss you dear daddy.. I'll try to take care of mummy and siblings without you. I love you daddy.
Time does not wait...
